Joyful Dreamer's Journal

Hold on to this moment!

2011-12-24T15:54:00.000-08:00

So often when I am with my children I think I want to capture this moment and remember it forever. But it is hard to hang on to the nuances of the memory. You lose the details even as you capture the big picture. Flash frozen a child is eating their first birthday cake, or discovering the magic of Santa. Today I had one of those moments. Cassie was watching Ben for me in the living room while I peeled apples for pie. I could hear him giggling as she tickled him and it was the sweetest thing ever. I wish I could have videotaped it, but the audio memory will have to do. The sound of Ben laughing and Cassie laughing back was so heartwarming. My children are all healthy,still living under my roof, we have food and a roof over our head, a nice warm house, trees decorated, cookies and other delights ready for the big day. I have a lot to be thankful for this year. Not the least is the sound of my baby's laughter. I am so grateful!

2011-12-14T22:54:00.000-08:00

Well it's been awhile. Ben is now 8 months and still sweet as sugar. He started saying Mama on Saturday, first one of my kids to say that before dada. No teeth yet but he's getting mobile by rolling around. He won't stay on his tummy long enough to figure out the crawling but he can sit by himself. He is eating banana, applesauce, pears, sweet potato and yogurt now.

We are all ready for Christmas. Trees up and stockings hung and the kids are looking forward to a visit from their aunt and new cousin. My SIL is getting married a few days before Christmas and decided to pop down to see us for a quick visit. I am so happy for her and so excited to see her. Last time I was so wrapped up in school and NICU visits that I barely got to visit. I can't wait to meet her new husband and stepson as well.

Changing wardrobe

2011-09-23T19:31:00.000-07:00

Company girl coffee time! http://www.homesanctuary.com/So I realized the other day that I've been walking around the last few months in clothing that is much too big for me. It's been funny realizing this because I should have been able to see it. I lost 15 lbs right before I got pregnant, then ended up delivering at my pre-pregnancy weight. Now I'm 14 lbs below that. So I am a full size or more smaller than I was before Ben was born. And still wearing the clothing from before I lost the first 15lbs. There was one pair of slacks in particular that I was able to button up the entire pregnancy. So this week I tackled my closet and was thrilled to discover in the back an entire fall wardrobe that fits! Out the door went the sloppy baggy clothing and I feel so much better about myself wearing clothing that fits. I still need to lose more weight but I don't have to look frumpy until I get there. I passed them on to someone else through freecycle and it felt really good to help someone else while letting go of things that don't work for me anymore. Plus I have a much neater closet and room in the back to spare. The shelf above the rod now even has room for all my sweaters so they are organized and won't get the shoulders messed up from trying to hang them. Next up under the bed. I don't think there is much there but I can get rid of any lingering objects and dust bunnies. One room at a time I will let go. I also sorted the books in the master bedroom and let go of half of mine. I still need to move them out of the room but I was able to put the ones I'm keeping on one bookshelf. Any one that knows me knows how much progress that shows. Just one box of papers to file and then that room will be completely de-cluttered for my part. My husband is still going through his things but he is also making strides in letting go.

Autumn has arrived

2011-09-16T12:10:00.000-07:00

Another Friday and time for Company Girl Coffee! Here's the link to RachelAnne's blog. I can't seem to get the blog button to work http://www.homesanctuary.com/

This week Ben learned to blow raspberries and he took his first trip to the park. It has cooled off and it is starting to feel like fall! Some of the trees have even started to change colors. This makes me happy because Autumn is my favorite season.

We have settled into a nice morning routine. One thing that I find extremely helpful is to set up a launchpad where we each put the items we need for the next day. I mounted hooks on the back of the entry closet door where the kids can hang their backpacks. They are each responsible for putting their homework back in their bags after I check it and sign whatever papers need to be signed, and washing and refiling their water bottles. They each pick out their clothing for the next day. This speeds up the morning and there are no more forgotten permission slips, missing shoes or keys when we need to get out the door. I need to work on our after school routine a bit since they are still staying up a bit a later than I'd like and I am distracted more than I should be and not following my own afternoon/evening routine as well as I'd like.

Creating a Clean Space

2011-09-12T11:27:00.000-07:00

The kids are back to school, and I have started my annual big declutter/clean up fest with the HGP. So far I've managed to clean the front porch, the entry closet and prune 2 of my 6 overgrown rosebushes. It's slower going with a baby but I am trying to do a few minutes every day. This week the focus is on the LR. We have a very small LR, filled with a lot of furniture.My main goal in here is to evaluate every item stored on the shelves, and in the cabinets. They are full and we don't use the items in there much so obviously a lot of these things should go. I managed to give away 4 pairs of snow pants and some other winter items we had too many of or that had been outgrown. I've decided not to store items for Ben, since it will be 10 yrs before he's big enough to wear them and space is at a premium in this house. Sometimes it seems tempting to try to do the whole house "Clean House" style and remove everything and only put those things back into the space that are attractive. But I know it would be an exhausting way to do it with a baby so I'm eating this elephant one bite at a time. It's really not that bad, just that we have lived here 7 yrs and things tend to accumulate when you're busy doing other things like college. But now I'm not a student anymore and it feels really good to take the time when I have it and re-evaluate our belongings and where we are in life! If we stay this space will be more workable and inviting, if we end up having to move it will be easier with a lighter load.

Back to school!

2011-09-02T23:25:00.000-07:00

This week was the kick off of the Holiday Grand Plan! I've been doing this Christmas Prep plan for 10 yrs and it's such fun. You can join in at http://groups.yahoo.com/group/HolidayGrandPlan/?yguid=320842432 to join the group and do the emails, or just go to the website and do it alone http://christmas.organizedhome.com/holiday-grand-plan
Every year my home is more organized and it's easier to get ready for the holidays. This week is list week and I've gotten a head start on my front porch. It's cleared off and the kids helped me scrub it and now it's ready to decorate for autumn. I seem to have gotten rid of my reusable pumpkins, so I'll use real ones and pick out some pretty mums to put on the porch along with my fall berry wreath. Pics to follow once it's done. I'll likely wait on the pumpkins until it cools off so they don't spoil.

Tuesday my older boys go back to school. Max will be a junior in HS, Jake is in 8th grade, and Nick will be in 4th. Cassie gets to wait until the end of September before her second year of college starts. It feels kind of strange to think that this year I won't be going back with her. Instead I'll be looking for my first "real" job. Ben will be happy to hang out here with me at home and cuddle with me as much as he can. He is such a lovey boy. He learned how to roll over one week ago and he's suddenly grabbing toys and has decided I'm not allowed to put him down at all unless I"m playing with him. But I wouldn't have it any other way. When else in life do you get to be the center of someone's universe? I've been blessed to get to do this five times and it's just as amazing this time around.

Ben was in the paper

2011-08-27T15:20:00.000-07:00

Special Delivery | MailTribune.com

We went to tour the new NICU where Ben was born and I was interviewed.

Summertime and the living is easy

2011-08-09T19:47:00.000-07:00

Ben is 4 months old tomorrow and last night he passed his sleep study. We are finally done with the oxygen! I feel positively free! He is growing and we have been having a lot of fun "conversing" with him. He likes to talk to us and is very smiley. The summer has been very relaxing and now that I have passed my NCLEX I am taking a well earned break and just focusing on enjoying some time with Ben. I have one job application out right now, and plan to do more soon. I don't want to spread myself too thin, so I will conduct a very focused job search locally. We still have time before it becomes urgent.

2011-06-11T23:09:00.000-07:00

Today I joined my fellow graduates of OHSU Class of 2011 (we are the 100th graduating class) for graduation in Raider Stadium at SOU campus. I walked 2nd to last out of the 1000 or so graduates on the field. This gave me a lot of time to think about how happy I was and to savor the moment. This day is one I will remember for the rest of my life. The message from one of the speakers: with great power comes great responsibility, so go out and do good in the world! I intend to do just that. To take what I have learned and do my best to give back something beyond the ordinary to the community; to make my mark by practicing my craft of nursing with evidence based knowledge, and love for others.

Graduation!

2011-06-09T20:18:00.000-07:00

Tomorrow I graduate with my BSN. It has taken me 5 yrs and a lot of hard work. I am so excited to have achieved my goal! I promised my mom 20 yrs ago I'd finish my degree and I'm finally making good on that :) I am looking forward to passing my NCLEX, and finding my first nursing job. During my time at OHSU I met some amazing people and I am very proud to be graduating along side people that I know will make a huge difference in health care and in the world!

Ben at 7 wks

2011-06-03T23:47:00.000-07:00

Benjamin at 7 wks

Update

2011-06-03T23:22:00.000-07:00

Ben got to come home on May 9th after almost a month in NICU. He is home on oxygen, doing fabulously. I managed to finish all my clinical time and I will be graduating next week!

In Hospital on Bed Rest

2011-04-02T15:12:00.000-07:00

Well the best laid plans....

Tuesday March 29 at 11:45 pm I woke up in a puddle and had to go to the hospital. They admitted me and I'm on bed rest until Ben is born. He has had both steroid shots to mature his lungs and they have had the 24 hrs they need to have the full effect. I've been in the hospital almost 4 days now and no contractions. He looks great on the monitor. The plan is to induce me April 9th if he hasn't been born yet. I am still planning to finish nursing school, just flipped my plan to do the clinical days I was going to do in April into May, and having a baby into April :) I'm trying to stay focused on the positive and cross each bridge as I come to it. At least it is reassuring that at 33 wks Ben has an excellent chance of survival and having a normal life.

Spring Vacation

2011-03-17T21:52:00.000-07:00

Today I finished off my last clinical day before Spring Vacation. I did 3 extra days for winter term to bank some hours for spring term in case baby comes early. I will be adding extra days whenever available in April. Now I have 10 days off before the craziness starts again. I am looking forward to nesting and getting the house clean and ready for baby :)

This week is a milestone for me. 3 years ago this week I was diagnosed with Bullous Pemphigoid an autoimmune skin blistering disease. I have been in remission for the most part since December, and have have very little disease activitiy since last summer. The remission rate is 70% within 5 years so I feel very blessed. http://www.pemphigus.org/index.php?option=com_content&view=article&id=366&Itemid=100080

Time is ticking away!

2011-02-18T15:57:00.000-08:00

Today I'm starting the 3rd trimester! It has flown by. I am feeling really great, my feet aren't even swelling after 12 hrs on them. School is going well. My preceptor has 30 yrs of experience in OB and I have learned a lot from her already. The kids are doing well, everyone is happy and healthy.

It's a.....

2010-12-27T21:34:00.000-08:00

Very

Healthy

Baby

BOY!

We are surprised but happy. Cassie will be our only princess! Now the process of picking out a name will start :)

It's been awhile!

2010-12-14T19:24:00.000-08:00

Shortly after my last post I found out I'm expecting baby #5! So life has been interesting and hectic. I just finished fall term and got my clinical placement for winter and spring term. I will be at a Birth Center! I am so happy and excited about it.

We find out if the baby is a girl or a boy next week. Everyone is rooting for another girl, but we'll be happy with whatever we are blessed with :)

Sparkpeople

2010-08-29T21:19:00.000-07:00

I've been really focused for the last month and a half on improving my health. I had some test results come back with high values due to a medication I have been taking for my Bullous Pemphigoid. I immediately went off the medication, and I have been very fortunate but I am not having many issues with my skin. Thankfully the values went down after I stopped the medication, but I started really thinking about what I could change to help my body and I joined a wonderful free weight loss/fitness site called sparkpeople.com It has been one of the best decisions I have ever made. I've lost a few pounds, and I feel fabulous. I'm not on a "diet" I am making better choices but not depriving myself and I have a good feeling that this time it's going to stick. I've lost 70 lbs twice before and gained it back using other diet programs and I always felt like I couldn't eat anything. I also didn't lose it slowly so it was a huge shock to suddenly be so thin. I didn't do well with that. This time it's coming off slowly, but that gives me time to adjust and I like it that way. I have also been exercising almost every day on my treadmill. I feel really good when I am done and I know that it is helping my body be healthy.

One of the main motivations besides my own health is that I want to be able to "walk my talk" as a nurse and show my patients that change is possible and doesn't have to be incredibly difficult.

Summer 2010

2010-08-01T16:04:00.000-07:00

Gold Beach
Lane and I in Jedidiah Smith Redwood State Park.

Busy summer! We visited family over the 4th of July for a reunion, and then my husband and I went to Gold Beach for a weekend. It was lovely! Nick is learning to swim and I have started walking every day for an hour to get back into shape.

Prom

2010-05-07T20:32:00.000-07:00

My daughter will be graduating from H.S. June 11th. I am so proud of her. She has turned out to be such a bright woman with integrity and grace. Her senior prom was last weekend and I thought I'd post a few pics of her and her date.

I'm in love with my iTouch

2010-04-20T23:12:00.000-07:00

I got an iTouch for Christmas and I'm loving it more and more every day. Makes me really want an iPad once the second/third generations are out and tested. Someday when I'm done with school I'll be able to replace my laptop with one I hope! So far I have added apps for Kindle- LOVE having a book to read wherever I go. Many very cheap or free books, and when I buy a book I always have it with me. I also have the Harry Potter Spells app for fun, and a Medscape App for a drugbook, proceedure instructions/info and I can even read articles or do CME's on it (education credits). I have barely scratched the surface of the app world. I feel like a kid in a candy store LOL.

Another niece or nephew is coming!

2010-04-10T21:43:00.000-07:00

My brother Jonathan and his wife are awaiting the imminent arrival of their second child today! This is the day after his movie release so it's a very exciting weekend. I love being an aunt and I only wish they lived close enough to visit. Japan is so very far away!

*~ Update~*

It's a girl! No name, length/weight yet but mother and baby are doing fine and my brother says he's going to bed with his older child and I am sure he's exhausted!

Winding down

2010-03-10T17:06:00.000-08:00

Last week of the term. Just one more clinical day and then finals. I followed a nurse in the PCU today, very different than the lockdown unit, I learned a lot today and actually felt useful, helping the nurse start an IV. I am looking forward to spring break, starting next monday after 3 pm :)

Saying Goodbye

2010-02-26T16:28:00.000-08:00

Mud Puddle has been having some health issues for the last month. It started with a swollen and then bleeding nose, that made it hard for her to breath. The vet ruled out bacterial infection, fungal infection, and then we thought it might be part of her autoimmune disease that attacked her ears a few years ago. But it's not any of those things. The results are back and it's squamous cell carcinoma and fast growing apparently. So we talked about it and the option of surgery which the vet felt wouldn't work, and would only add to the pain. We decided the kindest thing would be to end her suffering. I told the kids, and everyone is sad. Mud Puddle is going to the rainbow bridge on Monday.

100 Book Challenge in 2010!

2010-02-19T16:08:00.000-08:00

I decided to sign up to do the 100 Book Challenge in 2010 on J.Kaye's Book Blog

This will be hard, because Nursing school takes up so much of my time, but I love to read, I have to have more stress relief outlets and I can make up some time during the summer. On a good day I can read a book so I know this one is possible. Plus I'm behind in all my reading fun! I have a stack of books waiting for me from Christmas :)

January

1. Acacia- Fantasy series. This was an enjoyable read.

2. Percy Jackson and the Lightning Thief- Excellent. My kids and I finished it just in time to see the movie. The book is better.

February

3.King of Torts - I really did not enjoy this book. Why does everyone seem to think Grisham is such a great author?

4. The Sea of Monsters by Rick Riordan - Loved it. The boys are really into this series now.

March

5. Lamentation by Ken Scholes I really enjoyed this book. First in a series. I started it as my "van" book, to read while waiting for the boys to get out of school, but I couldn't put it down! I am going to download the next one for my itouch.

6. Anything but Typical- A novel written from the perspective of an autistic 12 year old boy. This subject is close to my heart since I have one exactly the same age. I could only read it in snatches, because it made me cry. Very well written and reality checked by people on the autism spectrum so that it truly reflects how they perceive things. I highly recommend this book!

7. A Game of Thrones A song of Ice and Fire Book 1- Wonderful fantasy, similar to Acacia in some ways. I'm already reading the sequel on my itouch.

8. Half the Sky- This is a life changing book. Difficult to read, as it is hard to face the reality that most of the women in the world today live under such dangerous circumstances and face the kind of treatment we generally like to think ended when slavery was abolished, apartheid was ended, etc. In reality many women are still sex slaves, and according to this book there are more slaves today than at the peak of the European slave trade. It's not all bad news, this book goes into many details about the work being done to change things for women all around the world, and how you can get involved. It all boils down to education, and enlightening the local people that there is another way. If you get a chance, read this book, then pick something that resonates with you and help.

9. A Clash of Kings Book 2 of the song of Ice and Fire series- I can't help it, I had to keep reading until it was done. Bed can wait!

10. A Storm of Swords Book 3 of the song of Ice and Fire series- Still satisfying, I'm going to be sad when I get to the end of this series.

11.A Feast for Crows Book 4 of the song of Ice and Fire series- Only took me a day and a half to read this one wanting to get to the good parts! Once I got to the end I discovered the last book in the series hasn't been finished yet, and it was a bit of a cliffhanger. How disappointing, but I guess I need to do something other than read this vacation!

12. The Titan's Curse- book 3 of the Percy Jackson and the Lightning thief series. The kids and I can't get enough, really enjoying sharing this series with them.

13. Witch and Wizard by James Patterson - Such a dissapointment. I didn't realize this was a YA book and it was much lighter reading than I was hoping for. I was bored for most of the book.

April

14. The Battle of the Labyrinth by Rick Riordan- Book 4 in the series continuing the story of Percy Jackson and his friends in their battle against Kronos. Still excellent and such a fun way to share mythology with the kids!

15. World Made by Hand by James Howard Kunstler. Post oil world. Interesting world he's developed that feels like a return to the late 1800's. A bit on the religious side, but the plot is good and the characters are well developed. I finished it in one day while doing other things so it's a quick read!

16. Welcome to Temptation and

17. Bet Me- a combined two story paperback by Jennifer Crusie. Lighthearted romance. I will be reading more of her books. Her characters are different than the usual romance protagonists.

18.Destiny's Road by Larry Niven- Very typical sci fi for it's era. I enjoyed it but something was missing from the flow. It is worth reading, but I felt lost at times.

19. Aftermath by Charles Sheffield- Post supernova EMP from a nearby star knocks out technology in this futuristic postapocalyptic novel. It had well developed characters, and a plot that kept you turning the pages.

20. This World We Live In by Susan Beth Pfeffer- The third in her series of YA fiction about the moon being knocked closer to the earth. I didn't enjoy this one after about CH 14, the author seemed to be going off on a tangent, and the characters didn't feel like they were following their personalities in the decisions they made. I did however enjoy her first two in this series, Life as we Knew it and The Dead and the Gone.

May

21. Year of Wonders by Geraldine Brooks- I read this for class, found it a great read. It's about the Black Death, and the main character's struggles.

So I have been slacking, and it's September! I'll add the links later.

Books I read this summer

22. Daggerspell by Katherine Kerr- Great fantasy series.

23. ACLS Book- American Heart Association - Preparation text for Advanced Cardiac Life Support. I passed my certification so it must have been good :)

24. The Mermaid's Chair by Sue Monk Kidd- Romance but with a twist. Love ended and regained. A bit gory in parts

25. Safe Harbor by Luanne Rice- another Romance novel. Sailing and sisterhood, and love over time. Nice story

26. Silent Night by Mary Higgins Clark- Romance, and mystery. O.k. but not my favorite.

September

27. Canticle by Ken Scholes- Continuation of the series. Very gripping and great characters.

December

Well I ended up reading only 27 books this year, but considering all the things that I had on my plate I am pretty happy to have read that many!

First flowers!

2010-02-17T17:27:00.001-08:00

I noticed a tree in bloom near my friend's house on Monday. That and the pansy's in bloom and the return of blue skies has me cheerful. Spring is on the way! Of course along with that comes allergy season, so we are getting ahead of the curve and starting the meds now before we all turn into sniffling stuffy noses.

This pic is from 2000, but it's one of my favorites. I am looking forward to the tulips!
I have been doing well with my coursework. Only 3 more weeks in this term, and I am mostly done with our psychosocial paper. Next term we move on to Populations and Epidemiology. I am really looking forward to Epidemiology since infectious diseases are a special interest of mine. I find them absolutely facinating.

Lost Souls

2010-01-27T22:00:00.000-08:00

This term has been a difficult one for me so far. Not so much the academics, although that is always a lot of work and time consuming. This time it's the emotional toll. I'm working in a hospital psychiatric ward, and while I'm fine while I'm on the floor my heart is breaking for the lost souls who are there, and their families. There are so few resources in this state and in this area in particular and so much need. I feel badly for my patients who had no chance from the beginning. Not only do they lack the insight to see what they must do to get well, but they lack the social support to have a chance. No stable family life, their history is a mess, and despite myself I find it very rough to look at these people especially the young ones and not think but for the grace of god go my children. While they don't have something like psychosis or schizophrenia, autism comes with some similar challenges in being able to construct an independent life. Right now they are doing so well in school and functioning at such a high level that I have high hopes that they will lead lives that rival any "normal" person's in their success and fulfillment. I feel very blessed and I am taking things one day at a time right now, doing what I have to do to sooth my soul, and being very very kind to myself, my family and my friends.

Half Done

2009-12-09T19:48:00.000-08:00

The end of this term marks the halfway point through the nursing program in total number of months. I got an A in this term, and my clinical instructor said I was the best in the clinical group. This is the second time a clinical instructor has told me that so I am very hopeful this bodes well for my chances of getting into the clinical specialty when they are chosen for senior year. Only 25% of our class will have that opportunity. I had a wonderful term and I learned so much.

Now it's time to celebrate before tackling mental health next term! I plan to clean my house, have our annual gingerbread house decorating party, listen to christmas music, bake cookies and sleep in a lot. Oh and watch movies and play games with my kids. It will be so nice to relax.

Thanksgiving

2009-11-22T22:43:00.000-08:00

This year more than most I have so much to be thankful for. I am happier than I have been in my entire life. I have a wonderful family, a loving husband, fantastic loving friends, a warm roof over my head, plenty of food to eat, the opportunity to go to school and learn what I love. And above all I have my health. Last week I successfully weaned off the Prednisone and I have been med free for one week! We will see if I am in remission in six months. So far not a hint of a blister of itchy spot so it's looking good!

Birthday Season

2009-11-13T21:20:00.000-08:00

November is birthday season at our house, with all 3 of my son's birthdays. Jake invited friends to go see a movie. I took them to see Astro Boy. It was cute. Nick chose to have a bowling party and that was a big hit as always. Max has decided not to have a party with friends, but we will celebrate on tuesday as a family. It's hard to believe I now have a 17 yr old, almost 15 yr old, 12 yr old and 8 yr old! No more littles at my house :)

School has been keeping me busy as well. I have a major paper due on Tuesday, and then Wednesday I have clinical and a class I'm helping teach for my nutrition class. After that it's smooth sailing until my final. I will appreciate the break as it has been almost non stop for two weeks. Overall this term has been easier than last year since I only have two classes instead of 3 hard ones.

Easy Peasy

2009-10-16T21:48:00.000-07:00

I have been slacking on my journal. The fall term is in full swing and so far it has been a breeze. I am really feeling relaxed and enjoying myself. I really like my clinical instructor and I am taking every opportunity I have to learn. Wednesday I got to do my clinical in OB. I watched a fetal monitor strip, and understand better what is good and what isn't. I saw a non-stress test on twins, and best of all I got to help support a laboring mom while she was pushing. We almost got to see the baby born, but our time in clinical was over and we had to leave before the baby was born. It really felt right for me. It confirmed my inner feelings that OB is the right area of nursing for me.

In other news, our town has been hit pretty hard by H1N1. 25% of the middle school is out with the flu, and a good 1/5 of the high school. I am going to get the vaccine as soon as there is some available at my Dr's office (I have to have the shot and the student clinic only has the inhaled version which I can't have) There were a lot of people at the hospital too with the flu so I really want to get vaccinated as soon as possible. Fortunately our school is prepared to be flexible about making up clinical days in case we get it.

Summer Bliss

2009-06-27T23:35:00.000-07:00

I've been on summer break for two weeks. Enjoying the sleeping in, reading fiction and cleaning my house. We are going on vacation for a week to visit Lane's family. I am looking forward to it!

Week 3

2009-04-16T20:11:00.000-07:00

Getting into the meat of this term. The kids are doing well, and everything is going as smoothly as I could hope for. My schedule is Mon, Tues, Wed packed full from 8-5, and Wed 6-5. Then Sim 3 times on Thursday. I have every Friday "off" to study and do other homework. This week I had to stay up late to prep for Clinical, my first day of full patient care at the hospital. So I was pretty tired and took a nap today. I had a great clinical on Wed. I picked a patient that was complex, but stable so I learned a lot without being too stressed. Next week I get to observe in the OR. We have two tests on Monday so I am going to have to study a lot over the next three days!

Spring Break

2009-03-25T16:30:00.000-07:00

My finals are over and I did very well. I got a chance to visit with my family and it was so nice to see them. My brother came from Japan with his wife and my nephew. Boy 2 yr olds are busy :) He is just darling and so smart! My mom and stepdad came as well and we had a mini family reunion. I will post pics at a later time when I get around to getting them off my camera.

Mostly I am reading and watching movies and sleeping. It feels SOOOO good to just decompress!

It's been awhile

2009-03-04T21:42:00.000-08:00

Almost done with winter term, but there is still a bit to go. I have to start studying for finals. Just two and a half weeks to go.

My grandmother fell and broke both of her ankles so I've been spending quite a bit of time visiting her. She will be going home on friday from the nursing home so we are all happy about that. They think she will fully recover.

I am really looking forward to spring break. My brother and mother are both coming to visit so I am happy.

23 yrs Challenger Remembered

2009-01-28T20:16:00.000-08:00

High Flight

Oh! I have slipped the surly bonds of Earth
And danced the skies on laughter-silvered wings;
Sunward I've climbed, and joined the tumbling mirth
Of sun-split clouds, — and done a hundred things
You have not dreamed of — wheeled and soared and swung
High in the sunlit silence. Hov'ring there,
I've chased the shouting wind along, and flung
My eager craft through footless halls of air. . . .

Up, up the long, delirious burning blue
I've topped the wind-swept heights with easy grace
Where never lark, or ever eagle flew —
And, while with silent, lifting mind I've trod
The high untrespassed sanctity of space,
Put out my hand, and touched the face of God.

— John Gillespie Magee, Jr

You are not forgotten Christa and the rest of the Challenger Crew!

Week 3 update

2009-01-22T09:42:00.000-08:00

So far everything is going smoothly this term. I have taken two exams and aced them. No time for anything except school but I'm a good kind of busy! I did take a break yesterday to go for a walk with Nick. It was cold but nice to be outside in nature for a bit!

Winter Term

2009-01-08T00:14:00.000-08:00

We're all back to school. I had an apt with my specialist in Portland on Monday. Everything is fine, it was just a required check in and refill prescription type apt. If everything continues to go like it is then I will be able to start tapering my other meds once I pass the one year mark on them. My labs look excellent. She was really happy with my progress.
I am taking Nursing Genetics, Pathology, Pharmacology and Nursing classes this term. I am going to be up to the tip of my head in schoolwork so may be a bit slow on the blogging. So far everything is going well. However my Patho and Pharm teacher is the same person who wrote our Contemporary Med Surg textbook that is 6 inches thick. A little intimidating LOL. He's really nice though but I can tell he really expects us to know a lot already and we have just started! Jumping in on the second day I felt a bit behind. Hopefully that won't last long. I have already read 5 chapters plus additional readings. I am excited about the new term though. I love learning so I'm going to dive right in and do it!

Merry Christmas One and All!

2008-12-25T22:23:00.001-08:00

Our Annual Gingerbread House Decorating Party

2008-12-20T20:34:00.000-08:00

My son Max is in the middle

My son Jake on the left and his best friend

My youngest son Nick in the red

Every year I host a party for all the kids friends and their families to come and celebrate the season with us by decorating a gingerbread house. It's a tradition I started when my daughter was about 4. I make the house and everyone brings a little something to put on the house. This year we had a big turnout with about 20 people!

You can find the recepie I use below on my last post.

Christmas 2008

2008-12-18T18:36:00.000-08:00

Welcome! I've decided to participate in Boomama's Christmas Tour this year. It's so fun to see how everyone decorates. I'm only doing two trees this year, as I sprained my ankle last month and I am on orders to rest it. So it's just the family tree and the Harry Potter Tree. I am a huge fan. I am adding to this tree every year so it's a work in progress.

We wish you and your family a very MERRY CHRISTMAS!

My Harry Potter Tree is in the Master Bedroom

This is our family tree in the LR

Saturday is our annual Gingerbread House Decorating Party. I will post pics once it is over. Until then, here is the recepie I use

The Best Gingerbread
3 x recepie
1 ½ C. butter
7.5 C flour
1 1/2 C sugar
1 1/2 C molassas
3 egg
1 T baking soda
1 T cinnamon
1 T ginger
1 T cloves
1 T cinnamon

Cream butter and ½ the flour, then add sugar, molassas, egg, baking soda, ginger, cinnamon, and cloves. Beat until fully combined. Stir in remaining flour. Divide dough in half. Divide into 6 pieces, roll in waxed paper and Chill 3 hrs. Roll out each section 1/8 in thick. Cut into cookies or pieces for house. Bake 375 5-6 min for cookies, or 16 min for larger pieces for gingerbread houses. If you are going to use for a gingerbread house, bake the pieces on aluminum foil, cool and then carefully flip over and peel off the aluminum foil. If you try to bake on a cookie sheet without the foil it will stick and break into pieces. This is a really tasty recepie for cookies as well.

Welcome to the world little one!

2008-12-06T21:36:00.000-08:00

Today some good friends of mine welcomed their youngest son into the world. I watched their older son for them, as he is Nick's best friend. I took him to the hospital to meet his baby brother and it was so sweet to see his reaction.
Baby and mom are home already. I talked to a nurse there briefly and was pleased to hear that the hospital here accepts new grads into Labor and Delivery! Since that is where I want to work I am realy excited about that option :)

Have You Ever?

2008-11-21T16:36:00.000-08:00

I borrowed this from Fishy Girl who borrowed it from Miss Snippity's website. Copy and bold anything that you have done.

1. Started your own blog

2. Slept under the stars-in a tent

3. Played in a band

4. Visited Hawaii

5. Watched a meteor shower

6. Given more than you can afford to charity

7. Been to Disneyland/world When I was 3

8. Climbed a mountain

9. Held a praying mantis

10. Sang a solo

11. Bungee jumped

12. Visited Paris

13. Watched a lightning storm at sea

14. Taught yourself an art from scratch

15. Adopted a child

16. Had food poisoning

17. Walked to the top of the Statue of Liberty

18. Grown your own vegetables

19. Seen the Mona Lisa in France

20. Slept on an overnight train When Cassie and Max were little we went on a train ride from Pullman, WA to San Diego, CA. Fun, but I don't recommend it with a toddler. He made me walk up and down the train more times than I could count LOL.

21. Had a pillow fight

22. Hitch hiked

23. Taken a sick day when you’re not ill

24. Built a snow fort

25. Held a lamb

26. Gone skinny dipping

27. Run a Marathon

28. Ridden in a gondola in Venice

29. Seen a total eclipse

30. Watched a sunrise or sunset

31. Hit a home run

32. Been on a cruise

33. Seen Niagara Falls in person

34. Visited the birthplace of your ancestors

35. Seen an Amish community

36. Taught yourself a new language

37. Had enough money to be truly satisfied Briefly in 2000-2002

38. Seen the Leaning Tower of Pisa in person

39. Gone rock climbing

40. Seen Michelangelo’s David

41. Sung karaoke

42. Seen Old Faithful geyser erupt

43. Bought a stranger a meal at a restaurant

44. Visited Africa

45. Walked on a beach by moonlight

46. Been transported in an ambulance - with my landlady but I wasn't the patient

47. Had your portrait painted

48. Gone deep sea fishing

49. Seen the Sistine Chapel in person

50. Been to the top of the Eiffel Tower in Paris

51. Gone scuba diving or snorkeling

52. Kissed in the rain

53. Played in the mud

54. Gone to a drive-in theater When I was a little girl. First movie I remember seeing was Rocky and I couldn't figure out why we were watching a boxing match LOL.

55. Been in a movie

56. Visited the Great Wall of China

57. Started a business

58. Taken a martial arts class

59. Visited Russia

60. Served at a soup kitchen

61. Sold Girl Scout Cookies

62. Gone whale watching

63. Gotten flowers for no reason

64. Donated blood, platelets or plasma

65. Gone sky diving

66. Visited a Nazi Concentration Camp

67. Bounced a check Only due to a screw up at the bank when my acct closed

68. Flown in a helicopter

69. Saved a favorite childhood toy

70. Visited the Lincoln Memorial

71. Eaten Caviar

72. Pieced a quilt

73. Stood in Times Square

74. Toured the Everglades

75. Been fired from a job When I was a teenager

76. Seen the Changing of the Guards in London

77. Broken a bone

78. Been on a speeding motorcycle

79. Seen the Grand Canyon in person

80. Published a book

81. Visited the Vatican

82. Bought a brand new car

83. Walked in Jerusalem

84. Had your picture in the newspaper

85. Read the entire Bible

86. Visited the White House

87. Killed and prepared an animal for eating Fish only. Skinned and prepared a rabbit but didn't kill it.

88. Had chickenpox

89. Saved someone’s life

90. Sat on a jury

91. Met someone famous

92. Joined a book club

93. Lost a loved one

94. Had a baby Yep- 4 of them :)

95. Seen the Alamo in person

96. Swam in the Great Salt Lake

97. Been involved in a law suit

98. Owned a cell phone

99. Been stung by a bee

If it ain't broke, don't fix it

2008-11-20T22:14:00.001-08:00

Fun small thing for today's company coffee. Pick a cliche and make it your small thing for today. I pick "if it ain't broke, don't fix it." I chose not to worry about changing things today. I just followed my normal thursday routine, and got a lot done. My routines are working really well for me right now. Thanks to Flylady and thanks to Rachel Anne!

Haircuts are temporary.....

2008-11-18T22:36:00.000-08:00

Well all I can say is it's a good thing my hair grows fast. I really don't like my latest haircut. I haven't had my hair this short since I was a freshman in H.S. and there is a good reason. Next time I will be 100% sure the person cutting my hair knows NO layers over the bottom of my ear line. I think this haircut aged me 10 yrs! Everyone keeps telling me they like it, but I don't so it will be grown out ASAP!

Great Week

2008-11-14T20:51:00.000-08:00

I am enjoying the evening off after a busy and fulfilling week. Today we had the assignment to do a health screening at my son's elementary school. So I gave hearing tests, vision screenings and height/weight checks to kids from 8am-2pm. I knew almost all the kids so it was a lot of fun. This weekend I have a lighter workload so I'm going to use the opportunity to get a bit more done around the house.

This morning there was ice on my windshield so it's definately heading into Winter. A lot of the leaves are off the trees already since it rained for several days in a row. I need to rake them up so I hope tomorrow is sunny!

Fall Splendor

2008-11-11T20:53:00.001-08:00

Company Girl Friday

2008-11-07T19:04:00.000-08:00

O.K. I have to admit I LOVE today's small thing! Rachel Anne's small thing for today is to pamper your skin. After the year my skin has had it sure deserves it! I chose to give myself the total body once over from top to bottom with products that I love. I suggest you do the same it feels amazing!

On top of that, today I got to taper my Prednisone down to 5 mg. Which my Dr. said at my visit this morning to inspect my stitches is the same amount my body should produce on it's own. So I'm back within the normal range of the body which means the amount I'm taking won't hurt me any more. I am so happy

Flu Clinic

2008-11-07T18:43:00.000-08:00

Today I had the opportunity to give flu shots to the community. I felt really comfortable to my surprise! I gave 6 people their flu shots and it went really well.

At home, Max is resting from another incident of passing out at school. We will see the neurologist for another apt and possibly an MRI to try to figure out what is going on. We are having quite the week between my fall on Tuesday and this! I am off my crutches just about except for longer distances, but I can put my weight on it fully now and it isn't hurting as much.

Tomorrow is Nick's 7th birthday. We are having his friend H over for a sleepover and going to see Madagascar 2 tomorrow to celebrate!

Boo

2008-11-01T10:58:00.001-07:00

1st Shots

2008-10-28T20:39:00.000-07:00

Today we got to give each other flu shots. It was great! I was able to complete my flu shot for my partner and felt really comfortable about it. Likewise my partner got the chance to give me mine and she did a great job. I was a little nervous ahead of time but I really felt fine about it once it came time to do it. We all cheered each other on and kept the person getting the shot distracted so they wouln't get too nervous. I really like the people I'm going to school with. All in all they are a really great bunch of people!

Cup O' Joe Friday

2008-10-24T20:08:00.001-07:00

Hello fellow bloggers! It's time for Company girl Friday again

Rachel Anne gave us a mission of letting go of the "Mommy Guilt" and boy did I ever need it. While my kids have been very understanding of the new schedule, I feel a little bit bad about all the time it is taking from their time with me. Especially on Thursday when I was struggling to fit in 2 hrs of studying for my Microbiology midterm and poor Nick really wanted my attention and I had to tell him I would have to get back to him when I got home. Boy did I feel like a heel. He accepted it, but I really felt guilty. So today I am choosing to forgive myself. He certainly has! I did spend a good two hours with him when I came home before digging back into my homework for today.

I think sometimes as mothers we have this idea that we should be able to meet everyone's needs all the time and still do what WE have to do. I am coming to see that this really isn't realistic and certainly not very healthy. We can only do our best and really have to let the rest go. Sometimes our agenda has to come first for an hour or two. Our loved ones really do need to know we are human :) Hopefully this won't have to happen too often, but it makes me very glad I waited until my kids were all in school to attempt this. I know they are all old enough to understand why I'm not here a lot, or why I have to spend so much of my time at home studying.

A day at a time, a brick at a time

2008-10-24T19:56:00.000-07:00

This was an incredibly busy week! I guess busy is the new normal. I passed my injection check off, got an A on the first quiz, a B on my Microbiology midterm which I am happy with, and we got a chance to practice some interviewing skills with an "adolescent" actor. Then we participated in our first clinical and got to go watch the babies and children at a day care center to learn how to do a developmental screening. It was fun.

The older boys had their parent teacher conferences Thursday and all is going well for them. Max is writing a lot and made a point of telling his teacher that he's doing better because he trusts them now. That really made me happy to hear that. Jake is reading at a higher grade level and participating in a reading group with 6th and 7th graders and really enjoying that. He is getting a good handle on his new classroom and I had a lovely long meeting with his teacher. I will have to reschedule Nick's since I had a time conflict. Cassie's are next week. Her school had a career day today and she collected info on colleges and careers to look over. It amazes me that she is really only one year away from applying to colleges.

The fall colors are brilliant right now and one of my rewards to myself this weekend is to take some time to take a few photos of the trees before the leaves fall off. I'll be sure to post some when I do.

Company Girl Friday

2008-10-17T21:48:00.000-07:00

It's Company Girl Friday again at. Home Sanctuary This week my favorite thing is the mending. Mostly becasuse I didn't have any to do this week LOL. Kind of nice to be reminded to do something you don't need to do when you are feeling overloaded with everything else.

This week went by so fast, it's hard to see where it went. I sucessfully passed my vital signs checkoff. Today we gave a short group presentation on a community resource assignment. It went well. So far so good! I went to study group and it's a good thing I did. We had a crossword puzzle assignment due next monday that was written very strangely. Some people spent over 5 hrs working on it only to discover the reason they were having problems with solving it was that there were spaces in it! Not your standard New York Times type crossword. So that saved me a lot of frustration.

The weather here has turned to fall and the colors on the trees are very pretty this year! Fall is my favorite season here. I am taking the boys Halloween costume shopping tomorrow and picking up some pumpkins. It's time to get the house looking like fall!

Exhausted!

2008-10-07T22:19:00.000-07:00

Wow tuesdays are really long. Tomorrow I have no classes. So I'll play catch up on the house, and read a lot of chapters, and try to get some rest.

I have 10 chapters to read by next monday, and quite a few assignments to do this month. We got our temporary id cards, and we are learning to take vital signs this week. I am struggling to do blood pressure but I think I got closer to getting it right today. I plan on practicing A LOT this week. We will be checked off on it next week and can only miss one of the checkoffs to pass the course. Lab is pass/fail so I am putting the skills in lab as my top priority.

This week I also ran for the position of class historian. The OHSU chapter of the Student Nurse Association holds elections for 2 class liasons and one class historian. I was the only person running for class historian so it is likely I got the position unless there was a write in :) I am excited because there is a way to do a yearbook, and they have several cameras so we can take pictures throughout the year to include on a cd as well as in the yearbook. I attended my first SNA meeting today and it was fun. There is a conference in November, but I'll have to wait until next year to go as it will conflict with our schedule this fall. I know two of the members of the SNA as I had classes with them a two years ago.

At the end of the month the SNA will be hosting a social to introduce us to our "buddies" (juniors or seniors who have volunteered to be available to us for support)

The kids are coping well, DH is doing well with his job. Life is good even when I'm tired :)

Having so much fun!

2008-10-01T09:04:00.000-07:00

The first week of class has started and we have had 2 labs and 2 lectures for nursing. It's so much fun! It's like playing dress up. We get to practice the skills we learn in a mock hospital. The theory class is more interactive than lecture which is great. I also had Microbiology yesterday and we took swabs from our cheeks and made our own slides to practice using the microscope. Tuesday will be a long day, from 8-5.

Today I have library orientation and I will use the other time to do reading. I have a LOT of reading to do!

Company Coffee

2008-09-27T18:16:00.000-07:00

O.k. so I'm late by a day but I was very busy this week!
The small thing from I have chosen this week from Rachel Anne's Home Sanctuary is to reorganize my shoes. This was an easy one for me since I have all my shoes on a rack in my closet. I put the stray ones back on the rack and moved them around so the winter ones were on the top where I can grab them easily. I only allow myself to keep the pairs that will fit on the rack.

I also found the perfect pair of nursing shoes this week! They are Cherokee's and look a lot like Dansko's. I was relieved to find a pair that were tight enough in the heel and didn't pinch my toes :)

Nursing School Orientation

2008-09-24T19:59:00.000-07:00

Yesterday and Today I went to Nursing School Orientation. It was a really great experience. The first day the Dean of OHSU came down from Portland to speak with us in person. They used a wireless conferencing system so all the satelite schools could participate. They covered information on how to access all the services we need to use like financial aid. Then we had a catered lunch. After lunch we spent a lot of time getting to meet the faculty, and other students. Upper class students came to share their experiences with us and encourage us. I was excited to see quite a number of students that I had taken prerequisites with. It was a great start!

Today I learned to use a lot of different computer systems. The faculty gave us a lot of information about the program, and we took tours of the classrooms, skills and simulation lab. I left feeling really comfortable about the program, the faculty and the other students. It is going to be a steep learning curve but I am really getting excited about diving right into the hands on learning. They have computerized "patients" that follow programs generated by real patient data for us to learn on. We each do the simulation and then review with our classmates.

I now have all my books and supplies except for the shoes. I need a really comfortable all white pair of shoes.

Company Girl Coffee Friday!

2008-09-19T09:03:00.000-07:00

You may have noticed the Company Girl button on my blog. It's there because of Rachel Anne at Home Sanctuary Rachel's blog is all about the Small things we can do to make our home more of a sanctuary. Every day she gives us a Mission around our home. Sometimes it's something to clean, other times something fun to do with our family. We keep each other company in our quest to make our homes more peaceful and cozy. I have really enjoyed being one of Rachel's Company girls.

Her newest mission is Coffee fridays when we can share our blogs with each other. I decided to join in the fun :)

My favorite mission this week was to bake something from scratch. My kids really appreciated it :) We made chocolate chip cookies.

Chocolate Chip Cookies

1 C. butter
1 C. brown sugar
1 C. sugar
4 T. Milk
2 tsp vanilla
2 lg eggs
3 1/2 C. flour
1 1/2 tsp. Baking soda
1 tsp salt
2 C. chocolate chips

Mix. 375 9-11 min. or 20-25 min for bars.

Never forgotten

2008-09-11T19:17:00.001-07:00

Today hug your loved ones and tell them how much you love them. Never forget!

What a morning!

2008-09-10T15:45:00.000-07:00

Well today didn't go quite as planned. I got a call at 10 this morning that
my 13 yr old son Max had passed out at school. His teacher said he was just sitting in class and got this glazed look on his face, started breathing funny and fell out of his chair and hit his head. So I had to run to the school, take him
to the Dr and go to the hospital for tests. They did an EKG on his heart to
rule that out and it came back fine. We go up to the hospital next week for
a sleep deprivation EEG to see if he is having seizures. For now he seems
fine except for the bump on his head. But it was quite the morning!

What Superhero are You?

2008-09-08T11:36:00.000-07:00

Your results:
You are Superman

Superman		95%
Green Lantern		90%
Spider-Man		75%
Batman		70%
Hulk		70%
Supergirl		55%
Wonder Woman		50%
Iron Man		50%
Robin		38%
Catwoman		35%
The Flash		25%

You are mild-mannered, good,
strong and you love to help others.

Click here to take the "Which Superhero are you?" quiz...

Health update

2008-09-06T12:54:00.000-07:00

I have decreased the prednisone to 9 mg and my skin looks great. I am supposed to reduce my prednisone by 1 mg every 2 weeks now. At that rate I hope to be done with taking the prednisone by my next Dr visit. I noticed this week that my fingernails are fully recovered from the stress reaction from when I was so ill. In fact they are back to growing quickly and have good strength and thickness. Before my BP first showed up I had noticed my nails were always breaking and had gotten very thin. So I am taking this as a great sign that I am very healthy right now :)

Home Sweet Home

2008-09-02T17:13:00.000-07:00

We had a great time on our vacation! Our first leg took us up to see Lane's parents and sister in Port Orchard, WA.

Day 1- Drove up to Wa and had dinner with the family

Day 2- Went to the Kitsap County Fair. The kids had fun looking at all the animals.

Day3- We went to the Seattle Aquarium,

then met up with my friend Karie and her Daughter Loreena and went out for lunch at the Asian Market and then to the Seattle Science Center. We saw the Lazer light show set to the music of Queen LOL. Lots of hands on fun, and the butterfly house was the highlight for Loreena and I.

After the science center I met up with two online friends and their kids at the park.

Day 4- We had lunch with Lane's grandmother and packed up to get back on the road.
Day 5- We drove to Spokane
Day 6- Drove to my parents
Day 7,8,9 had a great visit with Nana and Boppa

Day 10,11 drove home

Packing

2008-08-18T13:52:00.000-07:00

Only a few days before we start our trip. I've been luxuriating by sleeping in, and enjoying the unstructured days since I finished statistics.
To Do before I leave:
Drop box off at Goodwill
Register Cassie for school
Laundry
Pack
Set up list for pet care for DH
Go to boys school and see what teacher Nick got. Pick up school supply list
Back to school shopping
Clean out van
Pack van
Thurs bright and early- drive to WA :)

Finally on vacation

2008-08-15T01:00:00.000-07:00

Yesterday I had my Statistics final. I am pretty confident that I did well on it. Now I'm actually on my vacation. It is really nice to have an open schedule. The kids and I are driving up to WA next thursday and then we will go to ID to visit my mom on the 25th or 26th. I am looking forward to seeing everyone and getting a change of scenery!

Wrapping up the last loose ends

2008-07-25T23:35:00.000-07:00

Monday I'll be mailing off my immunization form. That is the last hoop I have to jump through to complete my admissions requirements. I also renewed my CPR certificate today. It isn't due until October but I wanted to get it done before summer was over so it won't conflict with classes. Anything to reduce future stress.

The class schedule is finally posted and I am going to have some very long days.
Monday 8-11 Foundation of Nursing
Tuesday 8-5 Foundation of Nursing, (Microbiology in the afternoon with lab following)
Wed, Th or Fri 8-11 Simulation wks 4,7,10 of term
Thurday 2-5(Microbiology in the afternoon with lab following)

Clinicals TBA on Wed or Friday

I also looked at the text list and it is very long. 13 books for the whole year! Fortunately the text list for years 2 and 3 is MUCH shorter so I am assuming many of the books with be used in the entire program.

All I have left to do is purchase my navy blue scrubs and lab coat, shoes and my OHSU patches and I'll have all my supplies in place. I am really happy the scrub color is navy instead of white! :)

Apt with the specialist

2008-07-23T22:36:00.000-07:00

I drove up to Portland yesterday for my follow up apt with Dr. Morrison. On the way I stopped for lunch in Eugene and met up with a future fellow nursing student who will be going to nursing school with me. She's 39 so I won't be the only mature student :)

Dr Morrison was very pleased with my progress. I am down to 10 mg of Prednisone and from now on we will decrease it by 1 mg every 2 wks. She said I can stop taking the Prilosec, drop to 1/2 of the Tetrycicline immediately and stop taking it altogether if it doesn't cause a flare. In a few wks I can stop taking the Fosamax. I am so happy with this! I will go back to see her in 6 months. By then we will try to cut the Cellcept in half. I will have to keep taking the Cellcept for at least another 9 months. We will re-evaluate when the time comes depending on how my body reacts.

I am tired today but I feel pretty good considering I drove 10 hrs yesterday. Today I had another Statistics midterm. I think I did o.k.

Statistics

2008-07-11T18:39:00.000-07:00

I just got the results of my Statistics midterm. I got an A to my surprise! It's fortunately not as hard as I was afraid of. We have very little homework so far, so I have been able to really relax and enjoy my summer vacation with the kids. I also went over the requirements for a BS under the nursing program, and from what I can tell without talking to my advisor I only have to take Biology, Microbiology, Technical Writing, and 2 more classes about 300 level. That means after next year I will have mostly the nursing program itself to focus on. I am very happy about that!

Just a cute pic of the kids and Aunt Katrinka

2008-07-04T19:59:00.000-07:00

Ordered my stethescope

2008-07-03T16:23:00.000-07:00

I am starting to gather together the things I'll need for school. One of the items is a stethescope. I ordered a Littman Classic II SE. I got it in raspberry with my name engraved on it :) Since we will be wearing navy blue scrubs I thought a little dark pink would contrast nicely and with my name on it it's less likely to go "walking" a hazard I've been warned about.... I also orderd some completely white shoes, my pen light, and watch with a second hand on a lanyard so it won't get germy on my wrist. I will buy my scrubs and lab coat soon, once I check out the ones at the bookstore to compare style and price.

I go tmy fingerprints done for my backround check, the third Hep B shot taken care of. OK because it's not a live vaccine. All I have left is my TB tests which have to be done a week apart, and the antibody titers I have to have run for Hep B and Chicken Pox. Then wait for the backround check to come back, send off all the papers and I'll be done until the drug test. Lots of little hoops to jump through but it's all coming together nicely.

In other news, Lane took off the weekend to have a mini vacation with the kids and we are going to go a BBQ at a friend's church tomorrow and watch fireworks there. Nick has made some really great little friends and we have started to make friends with the parents as well so I am looking forward to this. It is supposed to be 85 tomorrow so much cooler than it has been and it should be a wonderful 4th!

I'm IN!!!

2008-06-25T20:37:00.000-07:00

I got a phone call today to inform me that a spot opened up and I have been admitted to OHSU Nursing School for this fall! :) I am SO thrilled!

Nick lost his first tooth!

2008-06-12T18:28:00.001-07:00

Done with A&P

2008-06-10T19:50:00.000-07:00

Today I took my Anatomy and Physiology Final Exam. I think I did very well. It feels good to be done with this term and enjoy two weeks off before I start Statistics. I am very tired! I plan to take a lot of quiet time to myself to just relax and read whatever I feel like. Also tackle a few projects later this summer to get the place organized again. We are still shuffling things around from our spring flooring project and I want to get my house back to normal!

The kids are enjoying their first week of summer vacation.

Next fall up in the air

2008-06-07T12:52:00.000-07:00

I heard back from OHSU, and I will be an alternate for Nursing School in the fall. It's so much better than a no, since there is a chance I'm high enough on the list that enough spots will open up so I will get one.

If not, I will continue to progress toward my goal and apply for next year. I have registered for Statistics for the summer, and Biology with Genetics, and Microbiology for the fall. In addition I will take Psy 228 which will put me on track for my backup plan to get a BS in Psychology.

I am feeling very good physically and mentally right now. The kids just finished school so we are on SUMMER VACATION :) I have 2 weeks after my final before I am back in class, and I am going to really enjoy the break.

A special request for Emma Grace

2008-05-31T12:38:00.000-07:00

I have been following the blog of a young mother with brain cancer. She has been very inspirational to me in the way she has coped with her illness. She is also the mother of a sweet little girl named Emma Grace who has autism and is a heart transplant recepient. Emma is in the hospital in very serious condition with a virus that is threatening her heart. Please keep her in your thoughts and prayers!!!

I'm not sure why I'm having problems posting the link as clickable but here it is anyhow...

http://especiallyheather.com/

Sweet 16

2008-05-27T10:01:00.001-07:00

My baby girl turns 16 today!!! It's amazing to me that this day is already here. She won't alow me to make a big fuss but I'm going to anyhow. I'm off to buy her art pens and canvas and other art goodies and bake a cake.

Bone Density Scan

2008-05-23T00:11:00.000-07:00

I got the results of my bone density scan. I'm happy to report I have very good bones :)

What happened to spring?

2008-05-15T15:43:00.000-07:00

Wow it's HOT already! We're supposed to get up to 99 today! It feels like it went straight from barely spring to summer. It will probably cool off again, but it's a indication that the summer is almost here.

I had my second lecture test today. I think I did o.k. I had to miss two lectures last week for a Dr apt and waiting to sign for UPs to deliver my medication...so we'll see how I did.

I was able to successfully lower my Prednisone dose to 80 mg this week, so that is progress :) My blood work from the edicrinologist came back and I have borderline low normal vitamin D levels despite taking 2000mg daily, so they are going to supplement me with a prescription. I suspect my kidneys are not turning it into the active form of D. Vit D isn't really a vitamin, it's really a hormone so it isn't like other vitamins. I've been totally out of the sun too trying to avoid the medication effects of being oversensitve to sun so that might be part of it too. My THS thyroid level was low as well and we will get another blood test in 3 months to recheck that. I am feeling really good overall though!

Spring Music Program

2008-05-05T23:50:00.000-07:00

Jake and Nick had their Spring Music Program today. It was so nice to go to the school and hear all the kids sing. Nick was so cute when his class did their songs. He knew all the hand motions. I wish I'd remembered to charge the video camera battery but it will be in my memory :)

It's been so lovely here the last few days! And I am continuing to feel really strong and healthy so I am very happy with the way life is going right now!

Feeling so great!

2008-04-29T22:41:00.000-07:00

The last 2 days I have felt totally normal! I stepped my prednisone down another 10 mg so I'm at 80 mg now. No new blistering. I was able to totally drop the sleep/itch med as well.

The painting/flooring/household maintenence phase is finished and now I am sorting through everything and getting it put away. I had the closet doors replaced so now my hallway looks so tidy with doors on my pantry. I also had the handyman add a shelf over my laundry area for more storage, fix the broken hinge on the kitchen cabinet and the broken drawer all for $375 including the supplies! Quite a bargain for the work and he did a very nice job. I am really happy to have found someone who is prompt, polite and does good work for a reasonable rate for household repairs. This will really reduce my stress level!

I also got an A on my lecture exam. Lab exam is on thursday and I feel really good about this term so far.

What a difference a month makes!

2008-04-27T11:11:00.000-07:00

One month ago my arms were covered with huge blisters. Here is what they look like today!

I still have more rash in other places that is healing, but oh my what a relief. Barely any itching, only a few hot spots and the medicine is clearly working. My potassium level tested in the normal range at the second blood draw so I just have to watch to make sure I get enough in my diet and I should be fine.

In other news I got an A on my 1st lecture exam, and the lab exam is on thursday. I feel very confident about that exam as well.

The new flooring is all in and we are moving our furniture back in today. Life is feeling almost back to normal :)

Adjusted meds

2008-04-24T12:38:00.000-07:00

I lowered my Prednisone dose down 10 mg on Tuesday. So far only a few tiny tiny blisters behind my ear and one in my mouth. About the same amt of blistering I was getting on the 100 mg, so I am sticking with the lower dose. My Derm called and left a msg saying something about my labs having a value that she didn't like but she hasn't called me back yet. Overall my body is healing and I really hope I can stay on the Cellcept because it is working and I want to get the Prednisone lower. There is another med we can try if I can't tolerate the Cellcept for some reason.

Amazing Grace

2008-04-17T18:44:00.000-07:00

I went to Accupuncture today, and as usual it was just what I needed. Kara Miller at Jade Mountain Medicine is my Accupuncturist and she is just so talented and intuitive. Today the music playing was Native American and on the CD was the most beautiful version of Amazing Grace in a Native Language (Not sure which tribe) accompained with Irish Music. Interesting combo that really resonated with me. I had some pretty bad edema on Monday and Tuesday and the treatment I had on tues took care of it almost completely! It helped today as well with everything. I am healing very fast. Still on 100 mg Prednisone, trying to reduce it was too soon earlier this week. I have NO new blisters today, and the others are fading. My forearms look SO much better. Hard to believe I had huge blisters there only a few weeks ago. I will take a pic and post so you can see how much better I look.

I feel almost normal today! :)

In the Clear

2008-04-14T23:31:00.000-07:00

Today I had my follow up U/S for my rt breast. It went fine. The area they wanted a closer look at they pretty much came to the conclusion what they saw is normal lymph tissue. So I can relax on that front.

I also had an apt with the opthomologist today and he won't rule our MMP for now. He says we will wait and watch and he's fairly certain its just BP but he thinks it bears watching closely due to the mouth/throat involvement. I will continue with the eye drops. He feels the Cellcept and Prednisone will help with the eye enough I should be able to wean off the drops eventually. He also warned me I will most likely end up with Cataracts from the Prednisone and eye drops, but not to worry about that for now as that is a long way off. I also found out my optic nerves are at a funny angle. Nothing to worry about, just the way my eyes were made. I go back to see him in 2 months.

As for the rest, tomorrow I have class and an apt with the disability services office. I want to get in the system just in case I need a note taker or something later in the term.

It's working!

2008-04-13T14:20:00.000-07:00

Since I have started the Cellcept I have only gotten a few new blisters. Overall in the last week I have noticed a dramatic downturn in new rash and blisters. Today I got a few behind my ears, and they are all very small. The rash itself is still there, but only "hot" in a few places. The only side effect I have noticed is my ankles and feet are quite swollen. So I've elevated them as much as possible.

Friday I had an IEP meeting for Jacob. It was a very positive meeting. He has made a lot of progress this year. He will be going to the 5th grade at the middle school with the same teacher Max has had this year. She has been able to help Max so I feel confident Jake will be in good hands. He is excited about it as well.

I also had an apt with my dermatologist in Medford. I'll see her again in 6 wks. I will see Dr. Morrison at OHSU in June.

We finished up the painting in Max's room and will be moving the furniture today so he can move in! Then I have to put the office things back into the desks and tidy up the kitchen and LR where all of it has been waiting. Next week the flooring goes in the bedroom so those things will need a place to be moved before the end of the week. It feels like a sliding puzzle where you have to rearrange the pieces! And of course I have a bit of studying to do today as well.

Another good day

2008-04-10T17:24:00.001-07:00

Yesterday I was very tired from all the travel, and I am also pretty tired today. I had lab and lecture for Anatomy and Physiology and then Accupuncture. I decided to drop all my other classes so that I can heal and focus on what I really need to do.

Since Monday the blistering has been minimal. Only a few new ones mostly on my neck and face and shoulders. The overall rash is fading a bit. I started the Cellcept today. Hopefully it will knock this thing out fast. It is starting to feel like it might be on the way out :)

What a weekend!

2008-04-08T23:46:00.000-07:00

Friday I flew to Dallas for the International Pemphigus/Pemphigoid Conference. I checked into the hotel and went to the Welcome Reception. I promptly realized that this was going to be an amazing weekend. I met and talked to at least 5 people in those 2 hrs alone. Everyone was so open and friendly and I got a chance to talk to two of the physicians right away. I walked out feeling just that evening was worth the $ to go!

Saturday we all left to go to Univesity of Texas where the lecture/discussion took place. We had a welcome breakfast, then hours of different presenters and Dr's and snacks and lunch and more snacks. They fed us very well, and kept us supplied with a variety of beverages as well. The Dr's answered questions and it was far more interactive and intimate than I expected. We had about 70 participants, including spouses/caregivers.

Saturday evening I met up with my online friends from my "baby" playgroup and we had a great time out to dinner. It was so nice to finally meet Kelly and Ann in person!

I learned so much that will help in my treatment. Sunday I went out for breakfast with two new friends, then over to the conference for more presenters and discussion and questions. I got to speak to a total of 5 Drs for about 10 min each and they all told me to go see Lynn Morrison. Two of them had worked or gone to school with her. As it turned out, the Dr that My derm made me an apt with at OHSU is the same Dr so I'm in good hands :)
The only rough part about the conference is that I pretty much couldn't sleep. Thurs I got 0 hrs, Fri 3, Sat and Sun 5 hrs each. Luckily I felt o.k. despite that, even getting new blisters Thurs, Fri and Sat. Prednisone can make it hard to sleep and I am on a high dose for now. I slept much better Mon, with 7 hrs.

Sunday afternoon I met another online friend Shiela for a tour of Dallas and dinner. She is a professional geneaologist and we had a grand time talking about our enjoyment of finding hidden family treasure. We walked around the art area and I had the opportunity to take photos of the loveliest little Catholic Church that had the same layout as the church where Lane and I got married. It had incredible stain glass windows.

Monday was my birthday and I flew home, then we went out to dinner to celebrate with my dad and grandma. I didn't feel like it was my birthday until I got home. It was so nice to see Lane and the kids!

Since I had an Apt today in Portland, I quickly bought plane tickets and flew up today. It was going to cost me about the same with hotel, gas, etc and I knew I was in no shape to drive after the sleep deprivation I had all weekend. I got off the plane, and took the light rail train downtown, then caught a cab to the OHSU Dermatology Clinic. I was very impressed with Portland's mass transit! They have a tram that I could have taken directly to the clinic from the light rail if I had known about it. I took that on the way back.

I met with the Dr and about a million residents. I was quite on display :lol They were all very impressed with my rash and blistering and took pictures. This dermatologist was highly recommended by the Dr's at the conference. 2 of them had worked or gone to school with her. So I got lucky that my local derm got me in to see exactly who I should see in OR. She had them take a few more biopsies (to rule out a few other possibile things and to re-do the Pemphigoid biopsy) and blood and is switching my meds to Cellcept which is what I wanted, and lowering my Prednisone to 100mg.

We also agreed that I need to see an Endocrinologist to monitor my endocrine system and minerals, etc because of the high Prednisone dose, and get a bone density scan and to go on Fosomax to preserve my bones from the effects of the Predinsone. She says if I don't respond to Cellcept, we'll try Dapsone next, and then Retuximab which the Ins won't want to pay for at $30k a month :eek She is also open to trying the IVIG if we need to. She says that the ins co will come around because of the pics. BP is usually much easier to treat, often just with medium to low doses of Prednisone so my pics are pretty dramatic and she feels that should convince them it's needed if we do need to go that route.

I feel I am in very good hands and I am really hopeful that this other drug which is considered quite safe will knock this thing out! I will be emailing her and calling her with updates, and see her in person in about 3 months as well as seeing my derm here.

Imuran is not going to be the cure for me

2008-04-03T08:12:00.000-07:00

I just got off the phone with my dermatologist. Apparently the blood test shows I don't make enough TPMT a liver enzyme because I am homozygous (got the same gene from both parents) and don't make enough genetically. So my liver can't metabolize the Imuran completely so that explains why it isn't working for me. So I'll be on the lowest dosse of Imuran until we can figure out what to treat me with. My derm is sending me up to Portland to OHSU for a consultation since she's never treated BP with anything except Imuran. I feel relieved knowing why the meds weren't working and even though I'm still uncomfortable this gives me hope another therapy could work.

I am packed and just wrapping up loose ends today for my trip. I fly to Dallas bright and early tomorrow morning :)

First Week of New Term

2008-04-02T08:23:00.000-07:00

This term I will have class on 2 days a week T/Th. Yesterday was my first day of the new term and my long day. I have a group counselling class which helps out graduate pychology students from 9-11. Anatomy and Physiology lecture from 12-1 and then Health Psychology from 4-8. The Health Psychology class will be challenging as the professor is a perfectionist. I think I can manage it though. We will have 3 exams, and a 45 minute group presentation on a Behavioral Health topic. Lots and lots of research for that one, and very set perameters on what we need to cover. Which is a good thing, as it defines expectations ahead of time. Those won't happen until May so plenty of time to work on them which right now is a good thing.

Health wise I slept well, but woke up to a LOT of new red rash, which is what it looks like before another round of blisters. One day on a lower dose of the Imuran isn't looking promising. It is a take it very easy kind of day today. Both my younger boys are sleeping in since they are exhausted from Sunday night. They would NOT go to sleep and finalyy did at midnight but they are paying for it now. Rather than send them to school cranky since I don't have to go to class today I'll just let them sleep and take them in before my accupuncture apt at 10. Some days you just have to go with the flow!

Frustrated

2008-04-01T19:06:00.000-07:00

My husband has just had his annual review. Blindsided by a lateral move to another team, from computer development to Q&A. He did get a 2% raise and moved to salary, but it feels like a demotion to be moved without notice, and the only one in the restructuring to be moved to another team. I am sad and frustrated for my hubby. He is a good man, works hard and doesn't complain. He's not a dazzler, but he gives good service for the $ he is paid and deserves more respect.

In other news- I had to cut back the Imuran, something in the pre-medication blood work is low and she doesn't want me on the higher dose. If it was working at the higher dose I'd be less nervous about that but I'm still getting new batches of blisters every couple of days.

CAT scan Results

2008-04-01T11:38:00.000-07:00

Beautiful to hear, all is NORMAL!! :) I can breath a bit easier now.

Painting Max's Room

2008-03-29T21:01:00.000-07:00

This weekend the big project has been painting Max's room. He is moving into the office. At 13 I think he needs his own space. He took everything out of the office himself this week, and we had 2 of his friends over to paint today. We did the ceiling and two walls, and will do 3 coats, then move the furniture to the other wall and do the other two walls. He has planned and executed the whole project with a little help from us. I will be doing the rest of the painting....needless to say with RED paint it needs an adult finess to get the paint even but they did a decent job on the first coat and learned a lot. It's a bold color but it's fun and he likes it. I can deal with that :) And it's just paint. If he ends up not liking it we can repaint.

Test results are not in on the CAT scan, but my mammogram came back normal!

Mammogram

2008-03-27T18:47:00.000-07:00

The mammogram was easy. I didn't have to redo any of the scans. She says I should have the results in about 2 wks or less.

I had a new outbreak of blisters this morning. They seem to come in waves. A few good days, then a few hours of blistering. However the accupuncture apt was wonderful. I fell asleep.

CAT scan

2008-03-26T08:44:00.000-07:00

This morning I go in for my CAT scan. I will update when it's over! The prep stuff you have to drink isn't too awful thankfully!

Update- All went smoothly. I will get the results on Friday hopefully.

Tomorrow is my mammogram. I will be glad to have all these tests over with.

Grades are in

2008-03-25T12:59:00.000-07:00

Women in Psychology A
Intro to Psychology A (required for the psych major if I go that route)
Anatomy and Physiology B+

It will have to be enough! I couldn't have worked any harder to bring that grade up after the two C+ on the midterms. I am giving it over to mother nature to send me the way I am supposed to go.

I had another accupuncture session today. Relaxing but I itched a lot during it. Probably releasing a bunch of stuff. I feel sleepy today so I'm going to take a nap now and enjoy the beautiful spring sunshine when I get up to take the boys to the park. All the daffodills are in bloom!

Happy Easter

2008-03-23T18:00:00.000-07:00

Just a few of the eggs we colored. Cassie made them quite artistic this year!

Spring Break!

2008-03-21T19:17:00.000-07:00

I took my Anatomy and Physiology Final at 7:30 am today. I think I did pretty well on it! Whatever the outcome I know I did my best and that is all I can ask of myself. Physically I'm feeling pretty good today. Still not very itchy which is a good sign. I went to my regular Dr on the advice of my dermatologist to do a cancer screening. The meds I'm on are ones that depress the immune system cells that fight cancer, so obviously it's necessary to rule that out just in case. About 20% of BP patients have some underlying cancer. This isn't alarming when you look at the age most people are with this disorder 60-80 yrs of age. So I am not letting it scare me, just taking the sensible precaution of having myself checked out. My Dr is having me get a mammogram which I needed anyhow at 36 as a baseline for the future, and a CT scan of my abdomen and pelvis. I will do tha CT scan next Wednesday. I have to schedule my mammogram on my own and will call that in on Monday. I was going to do that today...but I took a nice unexpected nap instead :) I never do that but I guess I needed it! It was very nice!

Pretty good day

2008-03-19T23:16:00.001-07:00

A few more blisters on my right leg, and a few new ones on my forearms, but the itching was still noticeably less. I go back to the dermatologist tomorrow to get the sutures from my biopsy out. She called me today to let me know that she will be starting me on Imuran tomorrow. We'll adjust the dose as needed.

Poor Nick sprained his ankle going down the stairs at school today. He's having a rough week!

I got a lot of studying done today, and I feel pretty good about the Immune System chapter! My final is Fri at 7:30 am. I will be very glad to have it finished!

Sweet Relief!

2008-03-18T23:00:00.000-07:00

I am SO glad I decided to try accupuncture! For the first time in a month I had the experience of being completely relaxed without itching. The relief lasted until nightfall and it's still much better than it has been. I was very impressed, and I'll be going back on Friday for a second treatment, and 3 times next week. The accupuncturist is also a Dr of Chinese Medicine and she gave me an herbal treatment to take as well as some Essential Fatty Acids. Hopefully those will also be beneficial.

And I was able to take my bandages off tonight as the bigger blisters are all healed to the point they are no longer needing to be covered. I feel very grateful tonight!

I also got my teeth cleaned today, and went to my allergist. He gave me a clean bill of health lung wise, and said to just keep doing what I have planned and he'll see me in Dec.

Nick got to the Dr for eye drops, and spent the afternoon with Grandpa at the park while I had my accupuncture. He had a great time :)