Friday, October 28, 2005


I've been out of my mind for the past month and a half- sick kids, then I got sick, got diagnosed with Asthma, and dealing with my boys school situations and pretty much feeling like crawling into bed and not getting out.

I am pretty much terrified that they won't gain enough skills or ability to cope with life that they won't be able to grow up and leave home. They are getting older, and bigger, and unless we get some help soon I am afraid I won't be able to cope much longer. My heart is pretty much breaking into a million pieces. I probably won't be looking into my future career for awhile, my curent job as caregiver/mom is the only one I am allowed right now :(