Wednesday, January 27, 2010

Lost Souls

This term has been a difficult one for me so far. Not so much the academics, although that is always a lot of work and time consuming. This time it's the emotional toll. I'm working in a hospital psychiatric ward, and while I'm fine while I'm on the floor my heart is breaking for the lost souls who are there, and their families. There are so few resources in this state and in this area in particular and so much need. I feel badly for my patients who had no chance from the beginning. Not only do they lack the insight to see what they must do to get well, but they lack the social support to have a chance. No stable family life, their history is a mess, and despite myself I find it very rough to look at these people especially the young ones and not think but for the grace of god go my children. While they don't have something like psychosis or schizophrenia, autism comes with some similar challenges in being able to construct an independent life. Right now they are doing so well in school and functioning at such a high level that I have high hopes that they will lead lives that rival any "normal" person's in their success and fulfillment. I feel very blessed and I am taking things one day at a time right now, doing what I have to do to sooth my soul, and being very very kind to myself, my family and my friends.


grace said...

thanks becca! im so glad you are blogging. its a great way to destress. i am doing okay, hoping to have answers sooN! :)

Kathy in FL said...

I worked in a mental health facility for nearly a decade specializing in the 55+ population. There was both inpatient and outpatient. The heart break can be difficult to ignore especially when something seems synonymous with what you've seen in people you care about (friends or family). There are some very good texts out there on how to develop a good clinical relationship with the clients that is objective yet caring and caring without compromising the therapuetic approach that requires objectivity. If you university has a science library check the journals there. I've been out nearly fourteen years now so anything that I could remember would be way out of date.

Joyful Dreamer said...

Thank you Kathy! I will do a search. We have a very good library available to us online with a lot of journals to chose from.