June 17, 2005

I've been an emotional mess the last 2 days. Depressed and feel like I want to stay in bed. Of course I have no way to do that so I get up and go through the motions. I am SO lonely. I am physically, emotionally and spiritually exhausted. I'm trying to focus on myself and how I can gain skills and a career and find something joyful to fill my days. But at the momment the dark clouds are raining buckets on me and it's all I can do to breath.